I'm going to be honest with you, I've been afraid of a lot of things lately. It's weird for me, because while I'm not the most courageous person in the world, I'm an adventurous lady who is up for almost anything. But for almost a year now, I've just been...afraid. Afraid of what you ask? Gosh, a million things! I'm afraid that the world is going to run out of oil and that it's going to be chaotic without electricity and fuel. I'm afraid that something bad is going to happen to my family. I'm afraid of not being in the center of God's will and thus being miserable. I'm afraid of something crazy happening in Senegal and getting caught in the middle of it here. The list goes on and on. And it doesn't help lately that we've had no running water for five days, on and off power (up to 10 hour cuts) for about a month, and now there is a cooking gas shortage in the country (as in, there ISN'T anymore) which is what EVERYONE uses to cook here. I've literally imagined trying to get dinner ready for 14 people over an open camp fire.

Lately, though, I'm like, "What the heck, Jen?! You can't live your life worrying about things that haven't even happened yet!" Like, what kind of life IS that? A lame one, I tell you. My husband recently checked a book out of the library called "Fearless" by Max Lucado because he knows how much I've been worried. I'll be honest, I haven't read it all, but I've chosen different chapters here and there (each chapter targets a different fear). It's been really insightful and encouraging, and the basic premise? That if we believe that God is who He says He is, why do we have to be afraid of ANYTHING? He calls us to trust Him for EVERYTHING! Trusting Him is what I've really been trying to do lately. It's super lame to think that I could take care of myself or my family any better than He could...not even close! Anyway, if any of you are struggling with anxiety or fear, trust in the one who is holding you in the palm of His hand. Peace!